Who is the barefoot jewel exactly? Good question…she is me. I am her, we are we, whoever we may be. I am julie, often called jewel, and I want to spend the rest of my life living life in a barefooted sort of way. In other words, I want to live the second half of my life really living, instead of just going through the motions and doing what is expected. For a long time, life was just something that was there, I was too busy to really pay attention to it. But lately, a few years ago when I turned 40, something started to change. I can’t really explain it, but it seemed like there should be MORE to life than there was. I was so…..expectant….. but nothing was happening. I was living my boring little life, in my boring little house, going to my boring little job and just counting down the days until I wouldn’t have to do those things anymore. I didn’t know what I’d be doing instead, but it just seemed that maybe something would change eventually and I’d be doing something else, something…more. Whenever that someday came, I’d be really living life and not just waiting expectantly for it to happen.
“So, what happened,” you may be asking. Absolutely nothing, that is what. I began to realize that nothing WAS going to happen until I did something about it. So I began to do a little bit here and there, I guess I was sort of exploring the possibilities and seeing what my interests were. It had been a long time since I visited that place in myself that actually had interests, ideas and dreams. Sure I’d lived a decent life up to that point, raising my wonderful son, being a decent employee at a steady job, being a good friend, loving daughter, law abiding citizen…you get the point. However, it had been a very long time since I’d actually really thought about what I wanted to do with my life.
Surprisingly enough, I had no idea. How weird was that, to have no idea what I wanted? If I didn’t know, who else possibly could? I began to talk to other women, and was surprised to find that I wasn’t the only one who didn’t know what I wanted, what I liked, or even who I was anymore. In being mothers, daughters, employees, spouses and whatever else life demanded we be over the years, we had lost ourselves. This is apparently a common thing to happen to many women, and some may not even be aware it is happening to them! Luckily, I had figured it out, and I began to be very curious about who I really was. I have been working on it now for awhile, and while I haven’t figured out a lot yet, I did just recently determine that I am a barefoot jewel, and with that in mind, I am ready to continue my quest.
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