It has been 1 year and 21 days since I quit my job with DHS and embarked on whatever journey I was beginning. All I knew at that time is that I couldn't stand to work there another day because I felt like I was just WAITING, for retirement, death or something to change, and I had so many other ideas in my head, I had to get out of there because it was sucking the life out of me. I went to school for summer and fall 2011 semesters and had a few part time jobs, but when I finished fall semester and was on a waiting list for the nursing program at DMACC, I became anxious and frustrated and felt like I was at a standstill and WAITING, again, this time for my life to start. I was trying to figure out the best way to make things happen and somehow save money since I wasn't making very much at my part time jobs. I still wasn't enjoying life because I was too afraid of failure and worrying too much about finances and work, or not working, to be more exact.
So, somehow, and I'm not quite sure exactly how it happened, I'm now living in the middle of a forest in Ocala, Florida. The hardest thing I have ever done was say goodbye to my son the day I was getting ready to drive down here. He hugged me so hard, I didn't want to ever let go. I realize that this will be the best thing for him, at 21 he was still living with me, and now, since I have moved, he has his own apartment and is starting to make his own way in the world. I worry constantly about him, but it wasn't healthy for either of us for him to stay with me, we were both very frustrated. Now he can focus on getting his life started on his own, and I can figure out what I'm going to do with the rest of mine.
I know I want the rest of my life to include animals, art and nature. I want to try new things and enjoy every day. I want to start writing and being creative, and live as eco-friendly and green as possible. Even though money is tight right now, possibility is in abundance, and that is much more valuable and has much more potential.
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